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Saturday, May 06, 2006*
stupidity of an undying love.
love was e underlying factor.
existance of love n emotions.
caused pain n hurt.
i found a road tht leads to nowhere.
lost in e middle
i cant find my footing..
i need to be back on solid ground.
time is of the esssence
time heals all wounds.. does it?
words easily said.
easier said than done.
dun say a word
cuz evry word u say has a dire effect on me
do u hear?
its e sound of silence.
tis life is over rated.
i sure hope it gets better as it goes.
tears come streaming down my face.
again stuck in reversal.
i dun wanna be miserable.
~tas
Tas_anne @ Saturday, May 06, 2006
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Monday, January 23, 2006*
been MIA-ing quite alot these days...
e onli place i can be found is in skool and home..
had reunion dinner two nites in a row.. sat n sunday..
was glad i went..
cuz i havnt seen some of my cousins n uncle n aunt in so long..
had a nice time catching up..
but cldnt make it to MOS in e end..
SORRY ANGELINE DEBRA BONG !! :(
tink evryone will hate me for disappearing nowadays..
cant reali help it..
wish i can reali disappear..
disappear frm hall where all e productions full run n rehearsals are..
had rehearsal again yesterday...
it was dreadful!
oso.. my eyes have been giving me problems..
the same old problems as last time..
tink i need to go back to Dr Wong soon...
mummy's been asking me not to drag it..
but.. oh wells...
cant sleep cant study..even open eyes oso hurt..
sigh sigh sigh...
gonna hafta go for management klass soon..
haha.. lcukily Ben's in my lect too..
but too bad different grp..
tink i better go now..
its gettin late..hope it isnt another broing lect..
tata..
~tas
Tas_anne @ Monday, January 23, 2006
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004*
im changing my blog...
adding a password ...
so if ur e least bit interested in knowing it juz lemme noe...
tis will be my last public blog entry..
~tas
Tas_anne @ Wednesday, December 29, 2004
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004*
i hate myself being a radio...
talking too much..
i've said all thts contained in my heart..
regret sprouting it all out...
guess it was juz kept in me for too long atime..
bursting to be revealed..
but ever since i poured my heart out i realised i shldnt have...
it now makes me feel even more vulnerable..
feel even more insecure..
if onli i kept to myself..
i hate myself for talking to much..
deres juz no one i can talk to now..
someone i can trust n pour my heart to...
seriously i duno wat i am thinking..
mind is in a whirl..
havnt felt liddat in a long time...
wish i can juz stop talking n tinking for awhile..
cuz its tormenting me...
~tas
Tas_anne @ Tuesday, December 28, 2004
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Monday, December 27, 2004*
the worse hit earthquake in a hundred years...
killed so many ppl...
tens of thousands of people lost their lives..
lost their love ones...frenz n family...
so sad...
God bless e people...
~tas
Tas_anne @ Monday, December 27, 2004
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Sunday, December 26, 2004*
been home for quite some time now.
its past one.
which means tht christmas '04 is gone for more than an hr..
presents i received have yet to be opened.
for now i juz dunt feel like finding out wat my frenz gave to me.
does the gift tht they give come to show how much you mean to them?f
renz come and go.
how long will they reali stay around?
onli when u need them?
or onli when they're in need?
guess i am juz left alone all over again
promises are crap lies rubbish nonsense n evil talk
and the biggest crap is me.
tis yr's christmas passed me by juz liddat.
i've always felt tht Christmas is e best day of the yr for me.
even better then my birthday..
its a day where its a joy to give.
to give my best to e ones i love
juz as jesus gave his life for us all..
not expecting anything in return.
my dearest frenz ..my closest frenz..
yet today despite christmas frenzy n all..
i felt sad alone n not in e mood for christmas at all..
it dint feel like christmas to me.
cuz christmas isnt juz abt presents gifts or festive mood..
but its abt love joy n peace..
feel so sad.
duno the real reason why..
maybe its juz because frenz are no longer frenz..
the people we long to see..
the people we long to hear..
the people we long to be able to hold near ..
are all so far away..physically, emotionally and spirtually.
its juz sad.
guess the onli difference and consolation abt tis xmas ..
is tht although e frenz i used to have are no longer ard like they used to....
e wonderful ppl whom i gotto noe have made such an impact in my life..
esp the ones who are still ard me..
my cell grp girls..
the frenz i noe frm e china trip..
e ppl in church,
in SA , 03A22 03A21 council
cedar CHIJ-OLGC..
i love you all..
managed to call yesha n talk to him..
got e number frm es.
it was wonderful being able to hear him.
but he told me some bad news..
he n deng ting are not talking..
its so sad la.
two supposedly good frenz not talking to each other anymore.
a similar circumstance i am facing.
ironic how things change and not turn out well..
frenz juz dun talk to each other anymore..
hope they will be alright soon..
yesha promised to give in.
talked quite awhile..
abt how things are like in china n here..
its been quite a few days since we came back..
luckily e telefone was invented or else it'll reali be sad..
juz tht i hope my mum doesnt flare up when she see my bill cuz i talked for like half an hr..
still i guess its all worth it..
i feel like i reali reali missed them all..
a pity i onli gotta speak to yesha onli..
cuz thts e onli number i got..
reali brings back memories..
so many things i regreted doing and not doing..
so many things tht i dun tink i'll be able to salvage tis yr..
yet e one thing i will never regret tis yr is to go on tis china trip..
the one thing tht i noe...
the one thing tht i noe...
still rmb the bus ride journey back home to singapore ..
listening to jars of clay songs...
it brings back so many memories...
i sat at the front of the bus.
alone.
no one beside me.
no one to talk to.
just no one.
the emptiness inside.
a feeling i cant comprehend with words.
it was tremendously torturous.
hurts like crazy..
like i was stabbed a million times.
wats worse wat tht the sadness in me is overflowing..
no one seem to kare.
no one bothered.
no one will.
my heart is crying inside..
its dying.
~tas
Tas_anne @ Sunday, December 26, 2004
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004*
it was like a long dream..
a reali long dream dere..
n now we.re zapped into reality..
all over again to face wats more real..
but yet sth we do not yearn..
tink of the good memories
precisely bcuz they left me such beautiful memories tht made me all e more saddened...
think of it tis way..
they're e ppl whom we barely noe for 2 weeks..
yet they left such an impact on us..
wat abt the people we've known for mths yrs or even all our lives..
wat more imptance do they have in our lives..
yet they can be so fragile n easily lost..
intrriguing..
i miss china.
i miss them so so so so much.
i miss the people.
i miss the skool campus.
i miss the long flight of stairs in e skool.
i miss the early mornings we walk to their skool.
i miss interacting with them.
i miss playing basketball with them.
i miss their smiles.
i miss their laughter.
i miss their enthusiam to see us.
i miss talking to them.
i miss being able to wake up evry morning being able to see them.
i miss tht outing tht we had to yesha's hse.
i miss klass 222.
i miss yi xhong and wu zhong.
i miss my dear frenz.
~tas
Tas_anne @ Wednesday, December 22, 2004
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